When Brandon Kuehn returned from fight obligation in Iraq, one thing was unsuitable. He’d been discharged after being wounded in battle and struggled to return to life as a civilian, dwelling together with his spouse and son in Washington. He’d seen horrible issues at warfare, seen individuals die that he knew nicely. Kuen was wracked with unsettling ideas: Why not me? Why have been others killed however I lived? The chaos and cruelty of all of it weighed closely on Kuehn.
Alcohol and drug abuse grew to become fixtures in Kuehn’s life. He spiraled right into a cycle of anguished nervousness and a deep melancholy. In 2014, he tried suicide and survived.
Whereas recovering, Kuehn got here to grasp that he was affected by PTSD. As he labored to place his life again collectively he started spending extra time exterior. Mountain climbing, spending time in nature soothed his nervousness, calmed his nerves, brightened the sides of melancholy. Kuen grew to become so enamored with mountain climbing, he determined, as many individuals do, to aim a thru-hike of the PCT as a form of reset, a problem that will assist show to himself he may overcome something.
The under movie, Fixed Ideas, is a profile of Kuehn and a glance into his try on the PCT. It additionally exhibits that restoration is rarely so simple as simply going for a months-long hike. Kuehn, totally ready bodily for his PCT journey, abandons the path early on in his hike. It’s a robust second when he decides he’s not going to proceed, and a reminder that it takes greater than merely mountain climbing to heal from deep psychological wounds. That there are ups and downs to any type of remedy.
However Kuehn discovered sufficient to comprehend how essential it was for him to embrace nature and wild areas as a important technique of therapeutic. Although he wasn’t profitable on his thru-hike, by the top of the movie he’s determined to pursue coaching as a forest remedy information to stroll with others alongside his identical path.
Impressed by the movie, we spoke with the filmmakers Palmer Morse and Matt Mikkelsen about how they heard of Kuehn’s story, and what it was like attempting to inform such a robust, however delicate story. The movie could be seen in its entirety under the dialog.
AJ: How did you initially hear about Brandon’s life?
We met Brandon just a few years in the past whereas capturing one other brief movie for the Nationwide Parks Conservation Affiliation in Olympic Nationwide Park. We spent just a few days with Brandon, and in that point we have been capable of witness him speak concerning the impact that spending time exterior had for him and the way severe he was about it. We additionally discovered about his plans to hike the Pacific Crest Path as an final check of this concept of outside remedy, and we knew then that only a few days spent with him wasn’t sufficient to seize the whole lot of his story. We stayed involved with Brandon, and some weeks later requested if he was all for having us make a movie about him, and he instantly mentioned sure.
Had been you initially planning to hike the entire approach with Brandon on the PCT to movie that? Or did you already know he hadn’t completed the hike and also you recreated the backpacking scenes?
The movie was shot in “real-time,” so we had no clue after we started filming that he wouldn’t end the PCT. He had each intention of mountain climbing the entire path, and we had each hope to comply with him alongside the best way. We truly spent weeks planning out how it will work. Touring out of a van, our plan was to drive alongside the PCT and meet up with him when the path crossed a street and comply with him in for just a few miles, or a day or two in some instances. From day one, we knew that he could not end. When Brandon determined to tug off the path we have been there to seize the second. Brandon recorded himself and saved audio diaries alongside the best way as nicely, which led to a number of the extra intimate moments of the movie.
Have you learnt how far into the method to turn out to be a forest remedy information he’s?
Brandon shall be taking a course with the Affiliation of Nature and Forest Remedy in April of 2019. The ANFT is a very unimaginable group that gives programs everywhere in the world and expeditions for these seeking to deal with themselves via forest remedy. He finally hopes to assist others who’ve skilled trauma by bringing this info he’ll study again to the veteran therapeutic farm he’s now dwelling and dealing on in Jap Washington.
Does Brandon have any plans to strive the PCT once more?
Sure, most undoubtedly. Simply the opposite day he texted us and mentioned “March 2025, PCT 2.zero.” What’s essential to comprehend about his journey, and this movie, is that the path was by no means actually a villain however quite a backdrop for the numerous challenges he confronted internally. Brandon is definitely hoping when he makes an attempt it once more that his household can comply with alongside in a camper, and perhaps his son can hike parts with him. If something, this goes to indicate how essential trails like these are for people like Brandon and the way entry and conservation of our public lands and out of doors areas are so essential, not only for veterans like Brandon, however for the enjoyment of all individuals.